It is Ramadan,
and my father twists his finger,
expelling black stardust
onto hordes of chopped strawberries and kiwis.
Spiciness permeates the air,
settling in the tiny indentations
that pepper the fruit, like the dark specks
I try to fish out of my heart.
My bowl clamors its protest,
the clean white surface now a pallid scowl.
I want no stardust.
Instead, I want raucous Fourth of July parties,
where glassy red infernos
puncture indigo pinpricks
in a room of celestial bodies,
where fresh milk seeps into potatoes,
choking them thickly
in cots of gelatin.
Mother tilts her mouth,
and wisps of her language
tiptoe gingerly towards mine.
Has Pakistan been made yet?
she asks me, and I imagine
Iqbal \u2013 a hand curling a mustache,
smoothing a bicycle chain.
Has Pakistan been made yet \u2013 no,
or have I been made yet,
borne from the seedlings
of a retired judge and future author,
tattering spines,
shattering bulbs,
sprinkling garrulous beads
over sweet brown brew.
I don\u2019t dance much,
pin myself at the edges
of florid chants and jeweled tikkas.
When my friends talk to their mothers
their voices undulate against normativity,
trembling with hai and mai,
jellied like aspic.
My lips stutter against leather hides
that flagellate my tongue,
and simple words arrive
cleaved through like ruptured lanterns.
I wish now that I had grasped that stardust
tightly between my fingers,
pricking my palm with the spores
that penetrate my heart.
Perhaps I would have discovered
how to efface shame
from my natural habitat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It is Ramadan, and my father twists his finger, expelling black stardust onto hordes of chopped strawberries and kiwis. Spiciness permeates the air, settling in the tiny indentations that pepper the fruit, like the dark specks I try to fish out of my heart. My bowl clamors its protest, the clean white surface now a … Read More<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"nf_dc_page":"","om_disable_all_campaigns":false,"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1964","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-poetry"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/pa867U-vG","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/underwoodpress.com\/ruescribe\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1964","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/underwoodpress.com\/ruescribe\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/underwoodpress.com\/ruescribe\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/underwoodpress.com\/ruescribe\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/underwoodpress.com\/ruescribe\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1964"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/underwoodpress.com\/ruescribe\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1964\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1967,"href":"https:\/\/underwoodpress.com\/ruescribe\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1964\/revisions\/1967"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/underwoodpress.com\/ruescribe\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1964"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/underwoodpress.com\/ruescribe\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1964"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/underwoodpress.com\/ruescribe\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1964"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
Ayesha Asad is an aspiring writer and college freshman with an eclectic variety of interests that include painting, reading, and singing. She lives in Texas, and is particularly fond of watching (and playing) soccer games. Her work has been published in Blue Marble Review and TeenInk. <\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"