{"id":3546,"date":"2025-01-25T00:08:00","date_gmt":"2025-01-25T07:08:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/underwoodpress.com\/ruescribe\/?p=3546"},"modified":"2025-01-08T12:13:27","modified_gmt":"2025-01-08T19:13:27","slug":"see-if-i-open-the-door-even-a-crack-by","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/underwoodpress.com\/ruescribe\/2025\/01\/25\/see-if-i-open-the-door-even-a-crack-by\/","title":{"rendered":"&#8220;See if I open the door even a crack&#8221; by Kelly Tierney"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"\"><br>I know I won\u2019t be able to forget<br>the way the sun fell<br>across the room. That slant<br>lands on the part of me<br>I\u2019m least willing to look at, so I tense<br>only the muscles I deem<br>worth the risk. Eventually I\u2019ll notice<br>the withering and see all the space<br>left in its wake. Eventually you\u2019ll wake<br>to a different way<br>of holding your same body<br>upright. And that\u2019s the secret<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"\">no one told you because no one knows<br>what the word \u201cpace\u201d really means.<br>Half the time I\u2019m taking baby steps<br>just to remember<br>what they\u2019re like. Don\u2019t count<br>out my ability to become<br>a spotlight. I\u2019ve shocked a number<br>of nonbelievers into countless conversations<br>about the chemistry<br>behind shutting doors<br>at just the right decibel.<br>Real friends will unhook your jacket,<br>hold it up for you to sling your arms into<br>one at a time as a way of saying<br>\u201cI want all of you to stay\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"\">and there\u2019s not one example I\u2019ve found<br>to prove it untrue.<br>There are approximately no chances<br>left if you aren\u2019t greedy<br>in a sense we\u2019re all little kids<br>genuinely convinced we have control<br>over the wind or waves. And I\u2019m saying why<br>not, but getting less and less<br>answers. Goodbye is just another hue<br>of loss you can only be so prepared for.<br>Consequences hover and hope rotates.<br>Don\u2019t you know how easy it is<br>to fall in love with me<br>when I\u2019m not paying attention?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-small-font-size\"><br><em>Kelly Tierney is a dabbler in the arts\u2014currently focused on theater, movement, and poetry. She resides in the quaint-as-always Northampton, Massachusetts. Her creative passions are varied and ever-multiplying, so she is mostly known for having so many ideas and so little time.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"\"><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I know I won\u2019t be able to forgetthe way the sun fellacross the room. That slantlands on the part of meI\u2019m least willing to look at, so I tenseonly the muscles I deemworth the risk. Eventually I\u2019ll noticethe withering and see all the spaceleft in its wake. Eventually you\u2019ll waketo a different wayof holding your &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/underwoodpress.com\/ruescribe\/2025\/01\/25\/see-if-i-open-the-door-even-a-crack-by\/\" class=\"excerpt-link\">Read More<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"nf_dc_page":"","om_disable_all_campaigns":false,"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3546","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/pa867U-Vc","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/underwoodpress.com\/ruescribe\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3546","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/underwoodpress.com\/ruescribe\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/underwoodpress.com\/ruescribe\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/underwoodpress.com\/ruescribe\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/underwoodpress.com\/ruescribe\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3546"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/underwoodpress.com\/ruescribe\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3546\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3550,"href":"https:\/\/underwoodpress.com\/ruescribe\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3546\/revisions\/3550"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/underwoodpress.com\/ruescribe\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3546"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/underwoodpress.com\/ruescribe\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3546"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/underwoodpress.com\/ruescribe\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3546"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}