So much confusion,
yet limited – and limitless time.
So many random thoughts
undermining my mind.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So many potential causes\u2019
For one\u2019s memory losses:
old age or a family history
are possibilities.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
or a long-forgotten head injury,
or a chromosome 19
that hosts
an APOE 4 gene.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
There are several causes of delusion
that confound the diagnostic conclusion,
that in turn, leads to treatment confusion
as the disease slowly proceeds.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I can\u2019t or won\u2019t accept this diagnosis,
but I need to be honest with myself –
some kind of rot in my mind
is going to undermine my mental and physical health.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Until that day when I won\u2019t know better,
it won\u2019t matter how much I fought.
My irrational mind will block my ego
So I won\u2019t be able to experience what I ought:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A diminishing control
over my mind and heart,
which the absence of each,
will tear me apart.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
My mind will go out of my head
like a balloon in the air
as relatives and friends
grasp at what I feared:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
a mind that flies high
into a fully cloudy sky.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So much confusion,yet limited – and limitless time.So many random thoughtsundermining my mind. So many potential causes\u2019For one\u2019s memory losses:old age or a family historyare possibilities. or a long-forgotten head injury,or a chromosome 19that hostsan APOE 4 gene. There are several causes of delusionthat confound the diagnostic conclusion,that in turn, leads to treatment confusionas the … Read More<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"nf_dc_page":"","om_disable_all_campaigns":false,"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3804","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/pa867U-Zm","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/underwoodpress.com\/ruescribe\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3804","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/underwoodpress.com\/ruescribe\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/underwoodpress.com\/ruescribe\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/underwoodpress.com\/ruescribe\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/underwoodpress.com\/ruescribe\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3804"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/underwoodpress.com\/ruescribe\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3804\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3805,"href":"https:\/\/underwoodpress.com\/ruescribe\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3804\/revisions\/3805"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/underwoodpress.com\/ruescribe\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3804"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/underwoodpress.com\/ruescribe\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3804"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/underwoodpress.com\/ruescribe\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3804"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
Larry Ullian is retired and has written a lot (mostly unpublished) poetry for more years that he cares to recall. This is one of his first efforts at seeking publication. He was a Training & Development designer for various public, private, and non-profit organizations.<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"