Paige trained for months. She wore out several pairs of jogging shoes in a bootcamp of her own design. Her skin bronzed, then burned in the hot spring sun. The songs she chose invigorated her for weeks, then grew redundant and boring. She picked new songs, and then new ones again. Eventually, she learned to listen to the wind.
She stretched, and hydrated, and ran, and stretched, and hydrated. Then, she’d await a new day. A new day, to run again. A vast field of wildflowers lay waiting for her. She needed only to run nine miles along the unimproved bank of a bayou, and the field would be hers. Hers to see, hers to run through. Hers alone, until she left.
She couldn’t see her success on the horizon at first, but it came into view with each passing day. Her body learned to take more oxygen from each breath, and how to store more water in her cells, so she didn’t have to carry it on her back.
Each day she ran a little further, testing the limits. She’d run so far that she wasn’t sure she could make it back. Then, she’d fight against her fatigue and her fear until she arrived back on her doorstep, promising to see the wildflowers on a different day.
The morning of her triumph didn’t feel different than any other morning. She still had so much more training to do before she could even imagine the eighteen mile round trip. But, she hydrated. And she stretched. And she started to run. From her front door, she passed tidy little rows of houses with manicured lawns that were all so close to each other. Then, the houses grew further apart. When she got to the bayou, there were only a few homes in sight, and their vast yards were wild. Some were cluttered with junk, others populated by lush, tropical trees. Some trees bore fruit. Papayas, figs, and others that thrived in the warm, humid climate.
Soon, there were no houses at all. Just tall grass, and a still bayou. Occasional birds, and jumping fish. A turtle sunned itself, but fled from Paige’s thumping footsteps. Her legs grew tired. Water fell away through her skin. The sun rose higher in the sky, and threatened to sear her flesh. She knew that she would need to turn back soon, if she hoped to get safely back home. But, onward, she ran. Further from safety, further from neighbors and papayas. Her legs shrieked with aches. Her heart thumped protests beneath her breast. Her brain sounded an alarm from thirst, yet Paige kept running.
She began to doubt. Panic welled within her as the thought crossed her mind that this may be her last run. She bargained with herself, then pleaded. Spring will last a few more weeks. There’s no reason you need to finish today. Go back home. Hydrate, and stretch. Tomorrow’s a new day, and we’ll go further still. We’ll see the flowers before the summer sun scorches them. We’ll see the flowers.
Paige’s spine bent with exhaustion, and she forced herself to straighten her posture. In the distance, she could see a haze on the ground that looked different than the tall grasses she ran through. It must be the flowers. She silenced her inner protests, and her legs simply ran, and her heart just beat, and her brain only processed the ever approaching field. Each part of her body knew that it must help Paige get there, if there was any hope at all of her getting back. Under the forced march, she became an efficient machine.
An occasional wildflower appeared as she trekked. Small patches of leggy, struggling flowers became larger patches of stronger flowers until suddenly she was in the midst of an infinite expanse of yellow and orange and blue all growing together in a kaleidoscopic symphony of God and Nature and Paige. She ran deeper into the field, and was overcome with oneness. Euphoria gripped her and swallowed her whole and she was no different than the flowers or than the air. The field and the universe and the body were all one. They were all hers, and she was all theirs.
Paige slowed from a jog, to a walk. Then, she stood still. In a fleeting moment of self-awareness, she looked around, to see if she was alone. Then, she pulled off all of her clothes, and laid them neatly together. She walked deeper into the field, and lay down.
The clouds overhead formed a tapestry of cotton, and Paige reached her hands to the sky and pulled down a blanket, and wrapped herself in it. She lay naked in a field, bundled in the clouds, and breathed in the world around her.
A bee scavenged for nectar in a flower near her head, and then searched a different flower, bringing with it just a few green specks of pollen on its fuzzy little body. Then, the bee moved on to yet another flower. A bird emitted a single chirp, crying out to itself or another. A steady wind gusted across the field, and the flowers pressed against Paige’s body, then the wind changed directions and they pressed against her body again.
Paige felt that she might have run too far. She might not be able to get back home. She wasn’t even sure she’d be able to get back up in the first place, or even try. But, why would she want to? The field is hers until she leaves.
She saw no reason to go.
Maxwell Porter is an author who lives in New Orleans. He and his wife are on a constant mission to find natural beauty together, and to support each each other in their spiritual fulfillment. They often sit together, with her painting a picture of trees or flowers, and him writing stories of them.