Moving On by Jack Wildern

Jack Wildern is from the UK. He writes short fiction and lives in Hampshire with his wife and two children.


Moving on

She says ‘Thank you for cooking.’ Not, ‘thank you for dinner,’ because that would imply, we were meeting socially. This isn’t social, it’s an argument wrapped into six tortillas. Two for her. Four for me.

‘Did you get the email from my solicitor?’

‘No.’ I did actually but I’m being a twat on account that I’ve heard she’s fucking someone else.

‘Well he sent it to you yesterday.’

‘I’ll be sure to keep an eye on my inbox.’ She looks at me like I had spat in her fajitas. I’ve got the laptop open on the table and she knows damn well Yahoo is running in the background.

‘So, I made a list,’ I say through a mouthful of Old El Paso. She raises an eyebrow that is way more shaped than it was when we were together.

‘A list?’

‘Yeah. Well I thought now the house was sorted we should look at what’s in it.’ She takes a deep breath and exhales through her nose. Her eyes widen just a touch. She’s like a small angry bull but with perfect microblading.

‘We’ve been through this.’

‘No. You’ve been through it in your own head. Half of the shit in that place is mine.’

To confirm the fact, I turn the laptop around. A crappy spreadsheet glares on the screen turning the skin on her face a pale green. Columns with shit like, ‘cushions in spare room’ and ‘Shawshank on Blu-ray’, twitch left to right in her pupils.

‘This is a joke, right?’

I shrug my shoulders and stuff the second fajita down my throat. She hasn’t touched hers. Can’t say I blame her. I always make them too spicy.

‘I just thought it was the fairest way,’ I grab the sriracha sauce and send a couple of good thick squirts into a cavern of over spiced chicken. I want to make this one a proper bad boy. A real gut burner.

‘Fairest way?’ She slams the lid of the laptop down and pushes her chair screeching across the lino. I wonder if it will leave a mark. ‘You wanker.’

‘Now wait a second-’

‘How dare you. Is this why you asked me here?’

I’m acutely aware that my answer will define the rest of the evening. I contemplate saying something like no babe it’s because I miss you. Then again, she’s already pissed off over the email and the shitty dinner so-

‘Well… yes.’

Have you ever seen pure rage? It’s white of knuckle and still as stone. If you look closely it trembles ever so slightly.

‘What the fuck,’ she screams.

One of the two dinner plates I own splits in half as it hits the wall behind me. The guts of my Mexican compadres explode across a magnolia surface which I doubt is cloth friendly.

‘I just thought I could take the PS4 and the forty-six inch.’

‘The PS? You get nothing.’

‘That’s hardly fair-’

‘Then you shouldn’t have had sex with a nineteen-year old.’

It was a hand-job and she was twenty-two. But we believe what we want to believe.

‘Well what are you going to do with it?’

She’s about to go completely mental when her phone rings. The new bf. Has to be.

‘Hi.’

Her voice is suddenly like velvet. Definitely the new bf. I get up and start peeling bits of onion and red pepper from the wall, vaguely aware of my name being slandered in the background.

‘Ok. Yes please, I may need some wine first.’ She giggles and I feel a hot swell of tears behind my eyes. I push them away; I’ve always been good at that. She hangs up and watches me stack the broken porcelain on the work top.

‘I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have done that. You can have the PS4.’

I should be grateful. It’s more than I deserve. But then again, I liked that fucking plate.

‘It’s ok. Give it to your new boyfriend.’

I’m expecting an onslaught. I’m wondering how much damage she could do with a bread knife. Instead I get a look. It’s something like how you might stare at a dying dog that’s been in the family for years but won’t stop pissing itself. There’s sadness but it’s mainly frustration.

Her phone rings again three times and goes silent. ‘I’ve got to go.’

            ‘Ok.’

‘Here.’ She opens her bag. I get a waft of perfume as the content of her life gets tossed about. All of a sudden, she’s in my bathroom for the first time. Bottled flowers and makeup overpowering the gym bag deodorant of my room. ‘You’ll need this. I had the locks changed.’ She puts a little silver key on the table. ‘Let yourself in. Take the PS4 and the bloody tv. But do us both a favour and check your junk mail. Sign the paperwork.’

She turns and heads for the door. I can hear her footsteps on the stairwell as I make my way to the window.

Ever seen pathetic? It’s a bloke in his mid-thirties wearing pyjama bottoms and watching the love of his life disappear. If you look closely it even trembles.

My heart sinks as she emerges and runs into the arms of a stubbled face. He’s all muscles. I can see his triceps through his shirt. I can feel my own puffy gut starting to creep out towards my slippers.

He holds the door of his car open and she gets in. I watch it pull away, adjacent to the promenade and the fairy lights that sway green, blue and red between the lamp posts.

Shopping List by M.L. Fenton

M.L. Fenton is an aspiring poet and a full time bus driver. She is a life long resident of the Monongahela river valley of Pennsylvania. The collapse of the steel industry, subsequent deterioration of the of the surrounding neighborhoods as well as the rivers themselves serve as inspiration for her poetry.


Shopping list

She had beautiful penmanship (something
I’ve always lacked)

I thought as I looked at her

Shopping list:
Pudding
Hot dog relish
Bananas (two, ripped from the bunch)
Reader’s digest
Jumbo
Etc.

Me, hurried and slightly annoyed
after work.

Discarding the shopping list in the
buggy, continuing with the minutiae
of my, oh so important life.

later when she’s gone

I’m always looking for those
shopping lists with her lovely handwriting

when my hands touch the cold handle of any shopping cart.

Marbàn by J H Martin

J H Martin is from London, England but has no fixed abode. His writing has appeared in a number of places in Asia, Europe and the Americas.
Website:
acoatforamonkey.wordpress.com


Marbàn

It is beautiful. Truly beautiful.

All I can hear is the cry of birds and nothing else.

No cars. No sirens. No planes. And no machinery.

Yes. It is strange to think that these rusted gates in front of me were the entrance to the private grounds of some-Lord-or-other. An enclosed and expensive wonderland of statues, swimming pools and tennis courts. A place which like so many others around the world, now looks like some obscene relic from an age of gilded ignorance.

Now the bath-stone walls of the mansion and this gravelled driveway are no longer home to a resource-rich family and its limousines but to vines and weeds and roots. Springs of green that are rising up from the earth to reclaim what is rightly hers.

Stood on the cracked patio, where children used to play with the latest toys, I see the tops of the canopy which has taken back the skyline from all that gruesome glass and steel. At nearly seventy-years-old, I never imagined that I would see this. It wasn’t prophetised or predicted in any of those books in the family library in the west wing of the house. They only spoke about breakthroughs, progress and development. An end to suffering. A cleansing of disease. A sterilised and synthesised vision of an artificial and manufactured utopia. All laid out in neat and tidy numerical equations, which never tallied with my own experiences on this and other continents.

I don’t blame my parents or my family for that. They only wanted what they thought was best for me. Their expectations were only things which they had been conditioned through their cosseted environment to expect me to accept and to achieve. Clearly, as the ruins of the city show, they were not alone in that.

No. My rejection of those expectations were not a rejection of their love. Nor was it a rejection of my love for them. Quite the opposite. Standing here now, after nearly fifty years away, I see and feel their true presence and not the one which the bubble of their society forced them to dress up and present. In those vines, I see their strength. In those lawns of wild flowers, I see their natural beauty. And in the moss, the lichen and in the mycelium, I see we are all one with infinity.

Yes. It truly is beautiful.

Hasta la primavera, para siempre.

After 18 Years of Observing Mama by Olivia Rahal

Olivia Rahal is an incoming freshman student at the University of Oklahoma, double majoring in Acting and English: Writing. She has studied Acting at the Oklahoma Summer Arts Institute for two years, where she was surrounded by many artistic disciplines; creative writing especially sparked her interest.


After 18 Years of Observing Mama

In my 18 years, Mama began as
crinkling brown butcher paper:
the kind used to conceal a quaint christmas gift,
neat and admirable:
temporary qualities.
Soon, the paper takes on
edges, creases, and points.

Mama’s neatness acts temporary.
I watched it fade so quickly, I am
baffled to still find its abundance
preserved in time:
photos taken before my 18 years.
Perhaps that moved me to so highly esteem pictures.
Pictures steal the fleeting from the clock;
the momentary morphs into a higher form:
permanence.

Mama can not endure permanence,
yet her perfect, pressed, platinum hair on
school picture day
survives,
Now, Mama begins to crinkle.
Her pale skin swallows her tired eyes.
God never gave her tired eyes.
Perhaps the fatigue, too, will fade —
temporary.

I wonder what other temporaries My Mama holds.

Locust by Raymond Byrnes

Raymond Byrnes managed communications for many years for the U.S. Geological Survey/NASA Landsat satellite program. His recent poems have appeared in Third Wednesday, Shot Glass Journal, Panoply, Typishly, Waters Deep: A Great Lakes Poetry Anthology, and elsewhere. He lives in Virginia.


Locust

That locust on the hill
the one nearly wide
as tall, waves a thousand
moss-green feathers
each one a hundred leaves.

Every feather sways in rhythm
with the wind, but not like
frantic pom-poms shaken
at the game; more like how
Aretha’s boa shimmied
when she took her bows.

Forget Zombies. Odor-Causing Germs Are Out to Get You by James Barr

James is a freelance writer and survivor of two long stints at two renowned advertising agencies. His conversation is sprinkled with features and benefits and always ends with a call to action.


Forget Zombies.

Odor-Causing Germs Are Out to Get You.

The world’s gone zany with zombies. They’re popping up in movies, music, on TV and staggering all over social media. Without question, those frisky folks are lurching into our lives almost everywhere. Of course, no one has ever really seen one. And the last time I checked, no one has fallen off their earthly perch due to “Zombie Bite, Zombie Nibble, Zombie Death Hug” or even “Asphyxiation Due to Close Proximity to Zombie Breath.” So let’s continue to keep a wary eye out for these nasty ragamuffins, but turn our attention to a far more ominous threat: odor-causing germs.

These relentless microscopic troublemakers are everywhere and they’re not going down easily. Unlike zombies, you can actually see odor-causing germs if you happen to have a medical grade electron microscope somewhere in your home.

I know about these germs because I once was an ad agency copywriter tasked with creating nationwide angst about them. My client had created a new product aimed at killing them while claiming they were lurking all over your kitchen floors and in your toilets. The telltale sign that you had them? You could actually smell their presence.

My task was to create TV commercials that made your hair stand on end because you learned your home was Club Med for these invasive little critters. Then, we wanted you to leap out of your Barcalounger and dash down to your grocery store to buy the product.

My client was unsure of the efficacy of their new creation, however, so they opted for a test market in Milwaukee. This would allow them to test the appeal of their new product in a scaled-back, less expensive setting before launching an ad campaign on national TV.

From the very beginning, I had two concerns about the product. The fragrance was a blend of an impossibly pine-scented forest with the earthy, pungent aroma of an earthworm farm. Strong enough to curl nose hairs, it got you thinking one of the yams in the potato basket had gone bad.

My other concern was that the product wasn’t just stinky. It was also sticky. Shortly after the advertising began, complaints began pouring in about how the product nearly peeled soles from shoes. Several people said their young children actually got stuck on the kitchen floor and couldn’t move until their shoes were removed. A recent Milwaukee census showed a population drop, but I beg to differ. I think the missing people are still there, but can’t open the door to the census taker because they’re stuck to their floors.

Maybe this is a perfect time for a hair-raising zombie scare. Cue the vampires, too. If they really do exist, let’s turn ‘em all loose and get those folks moving again.

With or without their shoes.

We are on Hiatus

Until August 1st, that is.

Yes, we need a vacation, too.

See you August 1 with lots of great stories and poems and great authors.

A Personal Memorandum of Misunderstanding by Eric Roller

Eric Roller lives and works in Port Angeles, Washington. He enjoys teaching youth and wandering aimlessly on the Olympic Peninsula.


A Personal Memorandum of Misunderstanding

Today, a Wednesday,
I’m sitting in my office
with its rectangular window set
perpendicular to the world,
writing this poem of resignation
on company letterhead.
There have been other signs
of my surrender for weeks:
I forget to shave on Sunday nights;
I wear Hawaiian shirts on Mondays;
on Tuesdays, I sport hiking boots
with khakis, and
last Friday, a half-day, I wandered
off into the woods adjacent to work
and fed my lunch to the chipmunks.
This particular office job,
like the many in the past
I shouldn’t have accepted,
now tops my list of places
I look forward to leaving behind,
just nudging out that portable toilet
I once visited on a 110-degree day
in a solitary desert campground
in Southern Arizona.

It started off amiably enough
last February.
I admit, I was infatuated with the facilities,
especially the gym with the convenient
personal sanitation wipes—
and I was smitten by
the discussion of benefits,
the 10-personal days and matching
retirement plan.
And as I walked away from the interview,
knowing I had landed the job,
I secretly smiled with
the thought of possibly
making it 20 years
for the pension.

Today, though,
a Wednesday,
this job has worn
through the fabric of the months
to bare the bones of
my starved resolve.
This morning, a mouthpiece
called an emergency
meeting about mission statements
and guiding principles.
A memorandum of understanding
was laid gently on my office chair
like a leaf on a forest floor while
I was away from my desk, and
by mid-morning
there was a heated debate
on the post-traditional re-engagement
of our institutional engagement plan.
After lunch, a time I like
to spend fretting about the future,
I was asked by my boss with a serious face
to conduct a laser-like examination
of the overall
capacity of our tools.

I sit here in my office, now,
just before quitting time,
my door wide open while
I write these words
in jagged columns,
hoping to get caught
with my pen on paper
meant for official
business only.
My stomach and chest
are beginning to tighten
with the anticipation of what
I know I’m about to do:
Walk into my superior’s office,
the one in the corner with the view
and the family photos with frames that read
“Happiness” or “Fun Times,”
slowly remove my keys from
their lanyard, and then slide them
across the newly waxed conference table
and say, feigning sadness,
I am submitting this,
my personal memorandum
of misunderstanding.

Unprofitable Combinations by April Sevilla

April Sevilla likes photography equally as well as writing poems. She always carries a camera along with her pen and paper wherever she goes. Watching cats, clouds, rain, stars and newborns are what truly makes her happy.


Unprofitable Combinations

You, me, and the other
Are like dust, smoke, and water

…That pretty much sums it up

“A Rap: To the Over-Eager” and other poems by James B. Nicola

JBN self-identifies as a label-resistant American native of variegated hues. His children’s musical Chimes: A Christmas Vaudeville premiered in Fairbanks, Alaska, with Santa Claus in attendance, opening night. He is host/facilitator for the Hell’s Kitchen International Writers’ Roundtable, which meets twice monthly at Manhattan’s Columbus Library: walk-ins are welcome.


A Rap: To the Over-Eager

Perhaps you have to do
What you think you have to do.
Perhaps, however, you don’t really have to.
Perhaps it’s only what you think you want.
But take it from me, kid, consequences haunt
And ghosts do linger and cankers grow—
Don’t you think that I should know?
Oh I’m not saying don’t
But that perhaps it’s wise to stall.
It’s their funeral but it’s your Fall.


[A mother]

A mother
cannot be a poet.
There’s too much to do.

A mother cannot see the newborn as
    the hope of the future
    the glitter in the firmament
    the lifeblood con¬summation of all cause
and certainly not as
    the onset of intract¬able death.

A mother-poet like that must go mad.
And yet—

A mother cannot help
but be a poet

As she protects the progeny from
    non-existent dangers
    imagined threats—every bush at night a bear—
and acts as if she herself were
the young thing’s swaddling armor till
    a ripe age when the cloth is shred
    to rags, the metal rusts and clanks, while
    all that remains unsaid below the surface
lies still
    and cold as the ice in the ocean, while
    hot as all the lava that laces the hells of living earth.

And when the child folds into an adult—

A mother cannot possibly be a mother,
    which, in fact, she can only be,
and cannot help,
    but cannot help
but help.

I hope these sundry paradoxes
help you understand
your mother.


The Language of Encouragement

When the cat was new the claws and teeth
were trained before they’d become bayonets;
the leaps and junkets to exotic lands,
no reprimand from you but twee caresses
and glee in a soprano register
that passed for kitty talk. Destruction did
not mount to much, yet.
And when he grew
he walked all over every gut and scalp
the same as ledges, as if all were his,
leaving a wake of shattered cachepots’ shards
and desultory scratch marks. See how easy
and natural it is for him, now free
and fully formed, to join the terrorists.